I was trying to make dinner, the raviolis were just about to come out of the water when it hit. Claire got stiff and needed oxygen to help fight off what was trying to take over her brain. It quickly passed but she needed more oxygen as the timer beeped in the kitchen to get the pasta out of the water. Chloe, being the amazing little super hero side kick that she is offered to be in charge of the oxygen and I figured why not? As I drained the pasta I watched the amazing bond between the two of them, it was so surreal, Chloe slowly wiping the hair out of Claire’s eyes, it felt more like a movie than my life, stuff like this shouldn’t happen in real life. As Claire slowly came back and we were about to sit down to eat Jared got home. I can’t remember what I said to him or what his response was but it was wrong. Sure, it might have been a little insensitive but not to the level that I shot back with my venomous words. My heart raced as he walked away, I shook with anger. As he sat down to feed the girls I stepped out for a minute as I became uneasy and felt like I was going to puke. As I focused on breathing and finding my calm I tried to figure out what happened. This wasn’t the first incident. Earlier in the day I freaked out when somebody parked in the disabled spot at school only to find out that it was the mom of the new kid in Claire’s class who was in fact disabled and perfectly qualified to be parked there. I’ve been jumpy in general, my nerves are just shot. I put all this crazy out there to say this. Be gentle with yourself. If you are a parent of a somebody who requires insane levels of care, you may become insane and that’s alright. If you know somebody who does this, be gentle with them. Transitioning back to school is hard for us all and maybe even harder than we realize.